Thursday, December 4, 2008

late nights

working for yourself. i could always fathom the idea. how perfect it would be. right now, i'm smack dab in the middle of it. in doing so, i work at random hours. the mind always thinking what i have to do next. back home i never knew what it was like to be alone. not the "cry me a river" sad alone, just being able to sit here at 2 am, looking out the window and letting my mind wander. grant it, the roommate is asleep in the room over, but that's a relationship being built. not the same as being around those you've grown up with. for those of you who read this frequently, you know i just kinda write what's on my mind. and if you do read this consistently, you probably know me well, and if you don't, we should talk more.

before i left, i spoke with my good friend mr alexander. he spoke of how we need to redefine the way we measure success. he told me that the fact that i'm embarking on this ride should be looked at success in itself. many people vie for the opportunity to be able to chase their spark of a dream. when praying, mr alexander said "Lord, let mike know that it doesn't matter if he comes back and only his friends are wearing his shirts, or if he becomes so big, that he forgets about us. let him know that this journey is a success"

i don't know what tomorrow brings. well, aren't you scared mike? yeah, i'm scared. i can admit that. but it's the same feeling that is driving me to work that much harder.

the one thing i do know? i will never forget.

2 comments:

Starmarket said...

Lord knows for damn sure I'll be rocking your gear...One more thing. Success is also measured I feel by the number of failures and mistakes you are able to learn and grow from. Keep your head up.

tawny. said...

you're right. we can always go back to schedules and routines. and i guess the being scared part is what keeps the drive going.

the first step is always the hardest. i'm glad you and tommy have started yours. keep up the hard work and keep doing what you love.